reluctant
"but in the hour of His greatest trial,
His love overcame His fear of what loving would cost Him."
- John Eldredge, Waking The Dead
His love overcame His fear of what loving would cost Him."
- John Eldredge, Waking The Dead
once again, the cost of loving, and my fear of further cost, have and are paralyzing me. i know that i can't not love. to do so would be death. but sometimes, it's just too hard, and i really don't want to. however, beneath the wounded parts of my heart...much deeper than that...somewhere way down there...i know that i want to love...i have to. i want to wholeheartedly be like my Jesus. love brings us outside of ourselves...it makes us bigger...and yet, to do it, we must fully sacrifice ourselves...just like He did.
i can't do it alone.
actually, i can't do it at all.
i guess that's the key.
i can't do it alone.
actually, i can't do it at all.
i guess that's the key.
posted by Tara Bussema @ 4:39 PM
2 comments:
The line you quoted from WTD is one that stood out to me, too. It grieves my heart to think that, because of my sin, Jesus' love for me cost him everything. That he and others have to sacrifice to love me is beyond injustice. I am hopelessly undeserving and unworthy. But I guess that's what grace is for.
I want to wholeheartedly be like Jesus, too. It's so easy to love the people who are most like me. Where I often fail is with those who are different, who don't act the way I want them to, who don't talk the way I want them to or think the way I want them to. Who do I think I am, anyway?
I know I can't do it alone, or at all, either. Like you said elsewhere, I need to run to Jesus with all of the nothing that I have, and love others out of everything he gives me.
His love is amazing.
(p.s. - why doesn't this post show up on your main page?)
yeah...i dunno what to say...other than...yeah. i wish i could be better at receiving grace...and extending it.
i have a hard time loving those who are different too...especially being that i'm in ministry. i would say that my heart breaks the most over those who are the most lost and rejected...and i always want to reach out to them...but it's so hard for me to take a chance and not just gravitate toward those who are easy to talk to. i make myself sad.
guess we'll just keep running to Him and hopefully end up looking like Him and loving like Him. wouldn't that be cool.
(i dunno...it shows up on the main page for me?)
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